The expression

That day, I just got out one of my computer engineering professors’ office and entered the lab. I saw F sat at one of the tables along and was doing the school work. I went up to say hi and had a little chat with her. I asked how she was doing and she said she did not feel well. I asked if it was because of the school work. She said her teammates gave the easy part of the project to her. I saw there was a certain expression on her face but I could not read that kind of expression and therefore I did not understand what made her so sad. I said good bye to her and went to cafeteria later. At there, I met F again and but I neither talked to her nor walked with her. Later that night, I sent an e-card to F and hoped she was feeling better then. She sent an e-card back to me and said she was feeling better. That e-card came with a beautiful deep blue night sky on the background.

It was very beautiful view when she walked on the lawn with the red coat on her in the small rain. I also visited her and read the sutra to her upon her request once. The other summer I started to work on the paint crew, I saw F was still there though the semester was already end. I heard she was going to study abroad. I was so sad that I might never see her again.

The face expression I saw on F many years ago again appeared on W’s face. The other day when my cell rang, I turned my head and saw W with that kind of face expression. Also, when I opened the door for her and let her out, she also wore that kind of face expression. W wanted to stay rather than leave. The expression was sad and depress. F was sad because she might heard I was hanging out with E at that time.